Poetry

Once upon a time I wrote quite a bit of poetry. I went through a phase where I read a lot of poetry as well. I haven't written anything new in a long time. Luckily a good string of words has the power to delight (or to disappoint) without regard for the date they were born. So I'm sharing them with you. Enjoy!

A Letter To A Friend

It's not easy being young
Say it again, again and again
The words they ring through my head
And I know because this is me
You say that you can no longer feel
That your heart is like a locked door
Because the pain that you have is real
And you don't want to suffer anymore
Wronged by the words and deeds of a fool
Who is not worthy of your love and affection
Mystified by an image of supposed happiness
You hurl your heart in his direction
The fool is blind and cannot see your beauty
He thinks only of himself and his pleasure
You tell yourself "There is something wrong with me."
You feel rejected and worthless
But the mistake is his showing his true self
Your future disappointment is spared
I know because I have felt this
You wonder if anyone cares
Do not lock up your feelings
For this is who you are
This is where your true beauty comes from
And I can see it from near or far
I know it hurts and makes you cry
I know sometimes you feel alone and unloved
Your parents are not there for you
You are ashamed to tell your friends
But the beauty from inside your soul
Shall triumph in the end
I sometimes hurt inside too
But I believe that what I say is true
So I pray with all my might
That you never stop feeling
That you never stop loving
And someday you shall see
That all the beauty and love in the world
Is your's to give for those worthy to receive

A Question For The Ages

A question for the ages
Who am I to dream
Of golden castles
Of guilded mountaintops
Of far away lands ripe with riches
Is it the place of a common man to aspire to such heights
Is the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow merely a fable
Or a predictor
Of things that might well be
Of brave pioneering souls
Of self fulfilling prophecy
Are my blood, sweat and tears in vain
Or will this long, rocky road lead to fulfillment
To these questions I have answers not
Of these dreams I have no guarantee
Of one thing I am certain
I must walk the path of my choosing
And bend like a tree in the breeze
Though I can never be sure what lies around the next curve
My soul must travel on
With courage and character
With honesty and love
Because tomorrow the sun will rise
The earth will turn
And the road will still be there

Adulthood Is Upon Me

Rock n Roll rattles through my head
As I watch the cold rain fall
Wondering where my life will lead me as destiny calls

Beauty and sorrow enmeshed in my head this day
Left by a mute child who is hurt
But here to stay

Frozen in my mind are the times past
When I was sure of myself
Learning that nothing is real
And I can rely on no one else

All these trials and tribulations are mine to conquer
Adulthood is upon me
And I must face it with courage and honor

All I Am

the mountains of waves
crash across my mind
flying the miles
and lord i've been blind

give me the strength
the reason to go on
the dreams are too strong
where has the love gone

i want to let things go
maybe it'll all feel better
she wants to go
i never should let her

here in my place
it can be so alone
laugh for the moment
but this is my home

why don't they see me
the measure i can
i never do measure
this is all i am

so when they look at me
can't they just know
this is all i am
and that will never go

At Last I Am On My Own

The ocean breeze blows
And who but I knows
What lies ahead for me
Across the raging sea
This endless road called life
It cuts me like a knife
What's real I cannot say
Thy soul will set you free today
At last I pause and ponder
The pressure that I'm under
The seeds of growth are sewn
At last I am on my own

Different Light

Lying Here
This night
Go slowly
Slow down time

Looking up
Falling down
You picked me
Off the ground

So fast
We fly
It seems as though
We don't have to try

And maybe it's crazy
I think I'm scared
Take the leap
If you dare

The way you see me now
I've never been before
I'm stronger somehow
There's no fear anymore

I see the world in a different light
You shine through the dark of the night
I don't need sleep or anything
But you tonight

Hold on
Stay close
As we feel our way
From thorn to rose

You may be surprised
At what you find
I'm all that I seem
You'll see in time

Feel yourself in a different light
As I hold you late at night
All you need to be
Is you tonight

Every Single Day

light the lights
fire the candles
look at the sky
see what there is to see
just look up there
and wonder
and dream
cause we need those dreams
every
single
day

Eyes Wide Open

We plunge into life with eyes wide open
Screaming for breath and savoring the light and air
Then the time passes as the bells ring and fear rolls in
Like an afternoon thunderstorm on a day of oppressive heat
It's so hot I can feel my bones
They're sliding against my muscles and skin
This is the time of certain uncertainty
Hiding fear yet loving the future
Fuck all the naysayers, forge ahead

Imagine if you had a choice to stay in the womb
What would you do
It's scary out there but you didn't know
You couldn't know
It was risky, very risky but it happened
Waking up is risky
Yet we took the ultimate risk at the very start

She gives me comfort that no one else can
To do these things
To be a man

We live our lives with eyes that fear
Fear what we can't see
We've been told about all of it
By people who do not see

Fear

Fear
Does it rule me?
Am I it's master?
Fear
Of the unknown?
Of rejection?
Of death?
What is this thing that reaches in and holds my soul hostage?
Fear
The predator or the prey?
The prisoner or the gatekeeper?
Does it serve me well for my purpose?
Fear
Of Love?
My best friend and worst enemy?
Must I let this binding emotion penetrate my true feelings
like a staff in the moist ground
Ripping through the topsoil down to the moist, warm interior
Fear
Of what might be?
Of what I know might not be?
It lies within, but could I live without it?
I have lived with it only to realize confusion
The question
Should I allow it to stop me?

Feeling Like This

I've got it all worked out in my head
I won't expect nothing from this life
The pages will turn and my mind will run clear
But somehow it aint that easy

I think about why I can't seem to fit
In my head it's just pointless to think
Everyone's cool, but that's not me
And don't think that I'll ever be

We all try to match someone
We all try to search the miles
But we're blinded by meaningless consequences
And ain't that a god damn shame